Thankful

I'm thankful. In the midst of it all, I count my blessings, at least I try to. God has been unbelievably great to me, it's the small and often unnoticed blessings that really take my breath away. For instance, this time two years ago I was in and out of the hospital with breathing problems caused by allergies, since then God has blessed me in ways I would never have imagined and I'm breathing y'all! In addition, He's moved people and things out of my life that had no benefit to me at all AND He's done major construction on me myself (I know how I wrote that). What I mean is that He's brought me to new levels of maturity so that I could see where I was not benefiting to others as well. It takes MAJOR growth to recognize and own up to your own faults and to then realize improvement doesn't come from you in solitary.

I'm thankful. No, all things are not perfect and I do not have all that I want in life BUT I am finally at the point that I realize- if I never get EVERYTHING I want in life, which is impossible because we as humans always want more, I am satisfied. It's in this satisfaction that I find peace NOT complacency; and I've found the drive to go after visions. Why visions? Because visions are vivid images of revelations (revealed matters) and goals are set to attain them. You see, visions are larger than goals. I aim to live life larger than itself!

I'm thankful and I owe my Heavenly Father God my best and my all. I'm grateful.

What about you?

I'm Turning What????!

It's a bit early but it dawned on me that my birthday is FAST approaching! Before I know it, I'll be (muffles mouth) !$@;t%* years old... Ehem, I mean young!

I've always said that I'd be that woman who proudly states her age even at 100- I still stand by that statement buuut by nature I've come to an age of evaluation. I find myself sitting and thinking about my accomplishments, dreams I thought would come true by now- some have changed and others replaced. I'm a woman so I can't help but think about whether I will have children or not. Marriage? Haha! Wait, was that out loud? Oh well, sometimes you just have to laugh at yourself.

I ask myself sometimes "have you done all you've wanted?" It would be nice if I got an answer but the silence tells me that I've stressed for no apparent reason! My life has just begun! I was tripping all the way out. I have time as long as God gives me breath. So dreams and visions will become true!

All the rest, like a husband and babies, well, let's wait and see shall we? I'm in no rush. Until then, like my mother says [insert Caribbean accent here] "free paper not burn!" (Meaning: I do not have any life changing responsibilities.) ;)

Now back to your regularly scheduled program...